Another Day, Another Dollar!
Saturday, August 31, 2013
Friday, August 30, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 30th, 2013
After working so many hours and running on nearly no sleep...
I had a night out with my friends!
I've sure missed my Lisa!!
And Maley actually outdanced me at Status! ;)
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 28th, 2013
Someone is ready for Momma to come home!!
We miss you Jenny Poo!! :)
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
I Can Do Bad All By Myself!
I don't need no one to put me down,
I'm on the ground can't get no lower.
And I don't need no one to hang around an make me frown
just makes me look older.
And I don't need no one to black my eye an tell me lies
Don't wanna cry over nobody else
No, I can do bad all by myself!
I feel like lately I have been fighting a losing battle. I have struggled with my emotions over the past couple of months because I have not been clear headed enough to make the right decisions. However, it seems the further I distance myself from certain people, the clearer its become... they are toxic! I've been used for some people's sick and twisted amusement while others have just used me when it was convenient for them. Sad part is I've realized that I have done that to some of the people that I probably should of valued a little more. When you find someone good in your life, its both of your responsibility to nurture that friendship, not one person over the other. I've found myself in too many one-sided friendships lately and it made me realize that I need to step back and find the people who actually want to be apart of my life.
Many of my relationship - friends, romantic interests, coworkers - have been toxic lately. I've pulled myself back from certain individuals that I used to hang out with on a regular basis. Some of those people wanted to take, take, take, but were never willing to give. Sometimes just the simple, "Are you okay?" made all the difference and that's not a very hard thing to do. As for my romantic endeavors, no one has quite fit the bill just yet. I've been interested in less than a handful of people but for some reason find myself pulling back from some of them just the same. One seemed perfect, maybe too perfect, and that terrified me; the other is everything I wanted in someone except for he's way too childish and brings about a lot of drama; and the other well I'm still in the process of figuring him out. Regardless, each of them are toxic in their own way but one more so than the rest. Coworkers, well, they are a toxic situation all in their own. I've sat here and wondered why in the world I have been so unhappy and I will have to say that has been the biggest reason. One person in particular is so freakin toxic that the nicest way for me to talk about her is to just call her a venomous snake. She will get her teeth into you and it may sting at first and you think you're fine but she slowly eats away at you without you even realizing it. A job that I've loved for so long has become a chore knowing that I have to see her face day in and day out. It literally made me physically sick and I did not return to work for over a week and when I did... it was to give my notice and bow out gracefully before I honestly lost all of my humanity and compassion in my line of work.
While I've talked about all this toxicity, I know that I may not have been the most empowering person either. I am sure that I have been pretty toxic to some people all the same. Thing is... I want to make myself better. I want things for myself that some people will never even know about. I want to be the friend that people need because they know I will never turn my back on them. I want to be the romantic interest you need in your life because you know that I will make you better just as you will make me better. While I am told that I am incredibly good at what I do in my line of work, I want someone to be scared to lose me. People constantly kick dirt in my face but at the end of the day, I am realizing that all I need to do is rinse the sand out of my eyes and keep on trucking.
I've made a plan and I've set goals for myself lately that I have actually followed thru on. People have asked me about the ring on my finger... that is one of my goals. No, I'm not a "born again virgin" but I'm worth taking the time to get to know. I have found that I've emotionally invested myself in a couple of people that will never reciprocate but continue to use. There are times that I am going to stumble and fall but I'm still going to get back up and keep moving forward because I know what I deserve as a person, I know what other people deserve from me, but most of all I know that some people have been getting pieces of me that they never deserved whether it be my time, my feelings, or my emotions. Its just about time I step up and show people who I really am.
Monday, August 26, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 26th, 2013
Awesome Day to layout by the pool and darken a shade or two!
Then went Super Star Status
No one will know its me! ;)
Left a butt print! haha Awesome!
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Saturday, August 24, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 24th, 2013
Being Silly before heading into work,
but feeling pretty freakin awesome tonight!
Friday, August 23, 2013
Thursday, August 22, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 22nd, 2013
My Boo and I made dinner
and the Lady Love makes the best cookies EVER!
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Monday, August 19, 2013
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Saturday, August 17, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 17th, 2013
Brody's One Year Anniversary Party!
Family Photo
People who helped us survive the 1st year!
Friday, August 16, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 16th, 2013
Spent most of my night in the Slammer
but thank God for some awesome friends who rescued me!
Thursday, August 15, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 15th, 2013
Our new line up for our 1 Year Anniversary!!
Bed hair - heading to the bar!
Tommy & Stanley hanging out the sunroof
on the way home from the bar!
HILARIOUS!
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 14th, 2013
My little IT nerd getting the TV at Brody's
to connect wireless to the tablet
so we can roll for shots - Bartender's Choice!!
Greatest App Ever
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 13th, 2013
I think this is one of the best quotes we've had on our board!
Coming Out the Closet!!
I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter, dancing through the fire
Cause I am a champion and you’re gonna hear me ROAR
Louder, louder than a lion
Now I’m floating like a butterfly
Stinging like a bee I earned my stripes
I went from zero, to my own hero
You held me down, but I got up
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, you hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake the ground!
I dont think it really helped that I felt like my family left me hanging high and dry. I have turned into the black sheep I guess. Well more like I'm the alcoholic lesbian in their eyes. It made me laugh the first couple of times I heard it and then it just started to piss me off. Let me tell you, as many times as they've made the "lesbian" accusation because I didnt want to date or didnt bring anyone home to them, I sure wanted to appease the accusation just for fun! At some point I thought I would end up exploring the other side because every guy I encounter is just an asshole looking to get what they want. Some guys were nice A-holes but still A-holes and to be honest I've not found a single guy that is worth giving anything I have to offer. I thought there was at one point but....
Things have definitely improved and I can thank a couple friends for encouraging me to visit my sister and get my "vision" back on life. Being with my sister, brother n law, and the babies certainly helped me to set a new tone and want to get myself together. I came home and decided to stop smoking, started going back to the gym, and cut out drinking for a little bit too. Even though I still go out and drink with friends, I've started doing it less. I've been going for bettering myself because there is much more to me than what I've been putting out lately.
I have been happier and I've thought less and less about some of the heavy baggage I've been carrying around and quite frankly its nice to finally get rid of some of the heaviest bags of all. I've started to get my vision back and I know just the things that I want, whom I want in my life, those who I can live without. I'm thinking about taking some time away and disappearing for a while... that seems to be the only thing that keeps my sanity in tact and keeps me focused on the things that I want most for myself. I have a plan and its about time to get it in motion!
Monday, August 12, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 12th, 2013
Woke up to this sleeping boy.
and spent the day recouping from my unk accident.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 11th, 2013
Hungover Sunday
consisted of a fifth of whiskey
walking 4 1/2 miles in barefoot
and
getting yelled at for not being into someone! hahah
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Friday, August 9, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 9th, 2013
I got bored and wanted something new
so why not change my hairstyle!
My Little Derp!!
Love this kid
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 6th, 2013
Tuesday Night was quite interesting!
My day was pretty crappy but ended quite amazing!
I love my roommate!
Monday, August 5, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 5th, 2013
My New Detox Water
1/2 Cucumber
1 Tangerine
6 Wedges of Grapefruit
2 Mint Leaves
and 32oz of Water
Sunday, August 4, 2013
A Year in Pictures - August 4th, 2013
What can I say? He's a Momma's boy!
Always has been... Always will be!
Love him with all my heart!
This is the kinda stuff I come home to
from working the bar!
He became a "burn victim" on his face!
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Friday, August 2, 2013
Thursday, August 1, 2013
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