They hit you out of nowhere. When bad things come, they come suddenly without warning. We rarely get to see the catastrophe coming. No matter how well we try to prepare for it.
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We do our very best but sometimes it’s just not good enough. We buckle our seat belts, we wear a helmet, we stick to the lighted paths. We try to be safe. We try so hard to protect ourselves but it doesn't make a damn bit of difference cause when the bad things come, they come out of nowhere. The bad things come suddenly with no warning but we forget, that sometimes that’s how the good things come too.
November is the month to be THANKFUL. Why is it that we concentrate on one full month of saying thanks for all the things that you should be thankful for everyday. I'm guilty of complaining time and time again about all the bad things and rarely say thanks for the good things in life but that is what society has become. People have looked for the satisfaction of their lives thru other people's eyes rather than their own. Again, Guilty of this myself. However, I have decided to take on life in a different way. Being thankful everyday is a lot easier than finding the bad in everyday. Sometimes we dont realize that every thing we have, little or extravagant, is something worth being thankful for. Each person we encounter, good or bad, is a blessing (sometimes even if its in disguise)!
So while I'm not going to sit on facebook everyday and give you what I am thankful for everyday for one month out of the year, I will use this time to tell you what I am thankful for in my life.
I am thankful for meeting some of the greatest friends I could ever imagine this year. After the heartache and devastation of last year, I cannot quite put into words how much these people have changed me. They opened my eyes to what I did not see a year ago. They opened my heart, they gave me hope, and they gave me a renewed faith in myself. We have had our ups and downs, some of us more than others, but we have never truly turned our backs on each other. That is what true friendship is and its taken me 25 years to find this group of friends that have become not only family but a part of me. Some of us dont spend nearly enough time together, while others of us see each other every day but you would never know any difference when it comes to us all being together. I've learned what it is to be a true friend - happy or sad, glad or mad - and each and everyone of them teach me a little something new everyday. I am also thankful for the ones who help push me forward but also the ones who put me in my place when need be. I am thankful for the reality checks that sometimes only they can give. I am thankful for the countless times that they have taken my keys when I've been stupid and thankful that they've listened to me when I've done the same. I am thankful for them hearing all the bad and still not looking at me any different but hugging me with open arms. I am thankful for the times that we share each day. I am thankful for each and every one of you guys and though I may not say it everyday this month... I am thankful that you have helped changed my life for the better.
I am also thankful for my God-given Family. We fight, we argue, we makeup, we move forward - but we never turn our backs on each other. I spent several years pushing my family away because I thought I could do it all on my own. My family has been there for me over the past year despite the multiple times that I pushed them away, because they knew I wasnt strong enough to do it alone. I am thankful for a mother that has an undying love and that will always support me thru the good decisions and bad ones. I am thankful for a father that I will always be his baby girl and just like my mother will do anything in his power to keep me on my feet and moving forward. I have a "step-mom" who is not that at all but a mom like no other who has judged my wrong doings, but that judgement made me really put my life into perspective. She has been a beacon of light even when she didnt have to be anymore. I have "My Eric" who will always have my back and sometimes just call to make sure "I'm not strung out on crack"! (Inside family is police joke, nobody take that serious)! I have a sister that would drive in the middle of the night just to spend a couple hours together and a brother that will send me retarded pics or videos via text or snapchat just to make me smile. The biggest part of my family that I am thankful for this year though is a renewed relationship with my older sister that has grown exponentially in the past year or so. I am grateful for the beautiful kids that her and her husband created that give me hope and a renewed sense of love. They remind me everyday that life is worth living just to see them cut up and smile.
I am thankful for a job that has encouraged me to pursue a true passion. A job that led me away from a stressful job that I worked in for so long with no prosperity and that I found myself bored. I have been searching for what my heart truly desired and while I thought I was in that field, I learned that my heart truly lied elsewhere and I am quite close to accomplishing just what I desire.
I am thankful for the roof over my head and the person I share that with everyday.
I am thankful for a paid off car.
I am thankful that I dont struggle month to month.
I am thankful for a retarded dog who keeps me company on lonely nights.
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Recently, I am thankful for the guy that has changed my outlook in ways I have even yet to understand. The guy that comes over in the morning after working all night or takes me out to dinner/movies before he has to go to work in the middle of the night just to have some time to spend together. I am thankful for the guy that would rather call me beautiful than hot and just talk about my ass or my rack (but compliments are always welcome)! haha
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What I am truly grateful for this year... Having something to be thankful for each and every day. I have my health, my friends, my family, and a plethora of other things to be thankful for that I do not need 30 days to describe just to go back and bitch and complain about the other 335 days out of the year. Thanks to the ones that have changed my life this year and thanks to the things/people who have been a lesson to me. While I have been my own version of Negative Nancy, I'm happy for all the bad days that led to the good days and more so the people who have been there to share in the good, bad, and ugly!
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