Fairy Tales?

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales. That fantasy of what your life would be like. White dress, Prince Charming that would carry you away to the castle on a hill. You lay in bed at night. You close your eyes and you have complete and utter faith. Santa Clause, Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming…They were so close you could taste them but eventually you grow up one day, you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that that fairy tale entirely because most people have faith that one day, they will open their eyes and it will all come true.

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At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don’t really expect it. It’s like one day you realize the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed of. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it’s not so important that it’s happy ever after just that it’s happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon people will surprise you. And once and a while people may even take your breath away.

Every girl imagines their perfect wedding! Their father walking them down in the aisle wearing the perfect gown in the perfect dress to their perfect man at the most amazingly perfect place. Do you notice how many times I said perfect? Yeah, I could go on with several more. Ladies, lets be real here, how many of you actually had that wedding of your dreams? Answer is none. We fail to take into consideration that money may not allow you to have all the things you wanted, maybe your problem is time, could by chance your venue was booked for the next 5 years, or maybe Mr. Right turned out to be Mr. Wrong! So question is... Is it possible to live out that fairy tale anymore? Ladies have certainly forgotten how to be ladies in our day and age and men have forgotten how to be gentleman! So its hard to find Mr. Perfect.

I came across a quote the other day that simply said "I may not have found Mr. Perfect, but I found Mr. Right for Me!" I think that has been my problem in finding someone who can handle me. I thought I found Mr. Perfect a couple of years ago. I knew the day I fell in love with him that I would one day be his wife. Did you know that Mr. Perfect though is not the same as Mr. Right for Me. Thing of the matter is Mr. Perfect seems to vaguely defined. Your perfect is not my perfect nor is it little Susie's perfect either. We all want the house, the car, the kids, the boat, the same last name as the person we fell in love with but we all know that fairy tales do not exist anymore. Now we split the house, you have the kids this weekend and I the next, I took the car in exchange for you keeping the boat. People no longer work on their relationships/marriages but instead they bolt out the door for the next Perfect. 

Well let me tell you, I have met a lot of "Perfects at the Times" but now I'm looking for what is going to be right for me. I need someone who can accept me for who I am, someone who can love me at my worst, and most off all someone who is wanting to do something with their life. I mean really... if you're miserable with your life then you too will be miserable with our life. That was a hard lesson learned but I'm glad I learned it sooner than later. 

Away from my fairy tale kick...

I am pretty sure that I am officially smitten with my new friend!! You know, Jack from the other post!! I have had the opportunity to spend more time with him and each time we are together I just feel a stronger connection with him. I find myself hoping that every time my phone dings it's a new message from him because I know he'll put a smile on my face! I just love that feeling I get when I am with him. This morning though was the last time I will get to spend time with him til the beginning of the year! :( He gets to travel to see his family this coming week while the week after I will be on vacation with my family and it wont be til New Years that I will be able to see that face that puts this smile on mine! I guess all the more to look forward to right? 

Well my birthday is officially one month away as of today!! I am going to be a quarter century old. I dont know how I feel about that yet but what I do know is that I need to start figuring out what I am going to do for my birthday! I have both weekends before and after off (my birthday HAS to come up on a Monday in 2013) so maybe I'll just find myself celebrating here, there and everywhere! I am so excited to celebrate another year of my life because after these past couple of months... I think I deserve it!! I deserve to celebrate my life, my future, my well-being because Lord knows I almost lost myself a couple months back but NEW AND IMPROVED STEPHANIE is out and ready to take what has always been rightfully mine - my happiness!