Someone Special

Anyone can make you smile or cry,

but it takes someone special to make you smile

when you already have tears in your eyes...

I decided this year that i would take the high road. I want to be happy - with my self, my life, my attitude, my everything! I've spent so long letting the negative outweigh the positive, constantly being disappointed, & being pessimistic! I'm tired of that... It's exhausting! So I've opened up a door in my life that I hope remains open in my heart!

There are days I struggle and there are days that seem to easy but in all days I accept what is given. I pray for patience, I pray for understanding, and I pray that when it does get rough that I continue to focus on what is important instead of what frustrates me. I have to say that using this method helps me on a daily basis and I find myself pleasantly hopeful still at the end of a bad day. Now I've touched on how important a good attitude is before because we really do not realize how much our attitudes affect others. I continue to try to exude a light to others even when they try to put mine out.

My light, these days, seems to burn a little brighter due to a new friend that has come into my life. He may not be here everyday to see in person or touch but he never fails to let me know he's there. He reminds me everyday how amazing I am and how happy he is that we met. We always have something to talk about even if it's stupid. He's brought out a side of me that I never knew I had and makes me want to be more open to things around me. It's easier, now, for me to be more light hearted about things of my past. Between the constant disappointment that broke me to the humiliation that shattered me... They both did their part in molding me. I have to accept the things I cannot change but I'm willing to fight for the things that I can. I've been down dark roads because I've allowed darkness to consume me but not anymore! You can knock me down, beat me, or try to destroy me but I'm just going to look you dead in the face as I get back up, dust myself off, and keep moving forward!

I have a lot of things to look forward to this year which is another part that keeps me going. Still looking into flights to Hawaii & Colorado (I've always wanted to go skiing there), Vegas may be put on hold for a trip to Chicago instead, Charleston (the sooner the better), California, and of course trips to see the family in Texas, Alabama, Georgia, and again to Tennessee! Not to mention, tonight I was supposed to start bartending at Elixir! I've talked about doing this again for so long and now I'm FINALLY doing it! Until another night though with better weather! Cant wait though! =)

Oh the possibilities I never realized I had but most of all... No one to stand in my way!