Goodbye

"You and I will meet again, 

When we're least expecting it, 

One day in some far off place, 

I will recognize your face,

I won't say goodbye my friend,

For you and I will meet again." 

– Tom Petty

Last night, I came home and as I was plugging in my phone charger under the bed, I smelt an odor. Not anything gross just an odor! So what did I do? I investigated! There is nothing under my bed... I wondered if it was my stinky gym clothes in the bathroom that started to seep out into the bed room for a minute before I realized that the smell was not in the room just under the bed. So I went to the other side of the bed and right as I took one step onto that side of the carpet did I feel something squish between my toes! No folks, my cat is litter- trained and did not leave me a surprise on the floor (my first thought)!!! The floor was soaked from the head of the bed to the edge where I stood. Not only that but you could see fluid begin to pool at the top of the carpet in a few spots so I got down on my knees and continued to investigate. I could hear the carpet squish underneath me and I knew there was no way it was just spill. So I began looking for leaks. Windowsill was dry... edges against the walls - dry! I couldnt figure it out.

My lovely maintenance man, Thomas, stopped by today and was able to treat/clean up the carpet and come to find out there is a leak in the foundation causing the water to come in from the outside. Now as much as we've paid for this apartment, I would think we wouldn't be running into these problems but atleast they fix them right away! Thanks BBP for looking out for me!
Monday night I was pretty bummed thinking I bombed my STATS test but guess who not only made 100% but also is going to be doing some tutoring?? That's right... THIS GIRL! I was completely shocked when I was handed my paper this evening. Over half the class failed the test and even a few he didnt bother to show them their grades... just gave them a take home retest. Some folks just arent meant to be teachers... dont get me wrong (I'm pretty sure I've said this before) he's a smart guy just cant dumb it down for everyone to understand. I've walked out of class early on at least 2 occasions so I didnt lose my cool with him because he just doesnt get it that people need help sometimes and tries to make them feel stupid for asking.

I spent most of my day trying to go thru some old things and throwing away a bunch of stuff I no longer needed/wanted before my move. Its left me with so many mixed emotions. Its so weird to build a life with someone just to pack it up or throw it all away. How do you go about acting like something didnt exist? I've just learned I have to pick myself up and keep on going. Sometimes its easier to throw the baggage in the dumpster instead of carrying it for the rest of your life. I've always heard that when you love something, let it go if it comes back it was meant to be. Well I let him walk out the door almost 2 months ago and I dont see anything changing. My feelings havent changed... It makes trying to start over harder and basically I cant stand for anyone else to touch me even in a friendly way but that'll get easier one day. I'm sure it'll start getting easier once I'm officially moved out of this apartment and away from every reminder of the love that used to live here. I guess this is going to be goodbye to every thing I thought was going to be my future but when there is one goodbye, there is always a hello! Looking forward to the new place and being closer to both work and school!

For the 1st time in almost 3 weeks I did not go to the gym. I almost regret it because its been my release of emotions over the past couple of weeks however I figured it was a good time to take a break before I feel like poo! haha Back to the grind though tomorrow and I cant wait.

Well back to doing the laundry and hopefully crawling into bed soon! Good night loves!