True Love

true love :: 

does not mean you wont break up it means you'll always get back together... 

id rather have bad times with you than good times with someone else

id rather have hard times together then easy times apart... 

love isn't about how you forget but how you forgive one another.. 

it's not about how you listen but how you understand.. 

it's not about what you see but what you feel.. 

its not how you let go its how you hold on when things get rough... 

when two people are meant for each other no time is too long 

no distance is too far and nobody can tear them apart.. 

that is how you know its meant to be...

Today I spend the day sitting with a 6 wk old. From the time I picked him up the very first time he took my heart. I am a softy when it comes to babies. I love being able to hold, feed, love on, just give that special something to every baby I come into contact with especially when so many times they come thru the hospital because someone failed to give them that love like today. This precious little gift from God was a victim of parents that did not deserve to procreate. Story #1 from the mother was it was an unknown unintentional accident, Story #2 (and accurate story) was the baby was shaken. Shaken babies suffer so much from the force their parents shake them. In this case, the child had 1.7" of blood lining the cavity between his skull and skin. Due to the baby being so young and his fontanels not being fully closed, the blood was able to be released outside of the skull with possibility of the body reabsorbing it however the amount could cause seizures with the probability of death. Now that right there if proven which parent did it would be considered attempted manslaughter. 

I've always been a strong believer in the philosophy of "there are bad people who spit out children because they can or for the benefits of welfare but they do not/cannot take care of another human life while good baron couples cannot have children and could give these children a wonderful loving home." So why do these parents insist on torturing a child. People get frustrated all the time, not every parent is excited 100% of the time but they do not beat on their children or shake the hell out of them. So as I sat there with security all day (along with the mother) I was the only one ACTUALLY taking care of this child. In the 12 hours of me working I feed that child every 2 hours, burped him, changed him, swaddled him, held him, and comforted him when he cried. What mother sits back and lets a complete stranger do the job that she was intended to do? I, being the person I am and going thru the things I've been thru recently, had to leave the room and take me a minute because the second the nurse showed me the amount of blood on that baby's brain and explained the force that would have had to been put on that child for it to come to that just brought me to tears. WHAT I WOULD DO to give the child a proper home and let him know that he is loved. 

So it really got me thinking about becoming a foster parent. Not right now at this very instant but at some point in my life I feel like it would serve me well as I am wanting to show these children that not all people are bad and they deserve a love greater than what these deadbeat parents are showing them. 

I've spent my life on the quest of finding my true love and I think I finally realized that its not worth searching for, eventually when the time is right it'll find you. In the meantime, I can pour my love out to the children that I take care of and pretty much into my work because if I can make a difference in just one person's life a day, then I will feel like I've made a difference and I've made my mark on the world and I will feel like I have finally achieved what I've been searching for.